i so wanted to post an entry the past few days.
but because of my laziness,
basically i eat, sleep, watch tv and the cycle repeats.

this past week is my first week at work.
yes, i’ve got a full time job.
i’m working with Touch Community Services,
as a lifeskill coach (teacher) at Touch Community for Independent Living.
Basically teaching those intellectual disabled trainees,
who are above 18 yet don’t behave like one.

well well, the process of this;
i would say that God hands are upon it.
Reasons being are:

1. i’m not a qualified teacher.
first day of work, i discovered that the 3 other teachers
who have been teaching there for a while,
they’re actually qualified teachers in anyway.
either special needs, early childhood etc etc.

2. my competitors are better.
i know that a few competitors of mine were like uni grad.
and from what i know they’re quite good.

3. my application was sent in way ahead. probably early august?
it’s so long before i went for the first interview.
and yes, it’s like 2 months plus.
and all these while, i’d been sending out applications after applications.
my big boss in MOE was like nudging me about how’s my interview,
when i got none. OPPS!

it’s definitely not by chance nor coincident that i’ve got this job.
yes, there’s a few open doors too when i’m offered the job.
the decision is hard at first, but i just tell God that;
“God, whichever came back in reply first i’ll accept the job.”
true enough it’s the job i’m in.

i’m enjoying my first week.
and i think i’ll enjoy the rest of my days there.
because the trainees are so sincere and innocent and pure.
other than that, it’s always upon my heart to work with people like them.

i’ve great colleagues that’re willing to help me alongside.
knowing that i’m only 20, and fresh diploma grad.
isn’t it wonderful.

following God’s way is the best!
i’m totally convinced about it.
too many real life examples that i personally had experienced to name.

i just want to share this song with you guys.
it’s just speak of what i’m feeling right now.

"How Can I Keep From Singing"
by Chris Tomlin
There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing ’cause You pick me up
Sing ’cause You’re there
I can sing ’cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I’ll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

the day of not working in MOE is up!
today marks my last day of work as a temp staff at MOE HQ.

i’ve been temping at MOE since day 1 after my little graduation trip to Bali.
counting since then, about 7 months of working there.
met nice officers, temps and yeah.

from the whole jing gang of 12 temps,
after which uni term started.
it shrunk to like charis, me and sa di!
a few people were added into the team,
and they left.
finally today it’s my day to bid good-bye.

fun time working at MOE HQ.
and at least i got to know some HODs that don’t behave like one.
and having the privilege of taking leave as and when i like.

alright, will be embarking on a full-time job real soon.
Thank God for His hand upon this.

1 month ago, i was weeping on my bed or
even on my way to the wake of my grandmother.

1 month ago, i’ve seen the family’s worth.

1 month ago, i’ve seen how much is grandma is being missed.

right now, the thought of how is grandma
doing in another world just comes to mind.

the thought of, expressing your thoughts and feeling to whoever;
becomes alive in me!

don’t keep you ‘sorry’, ‘thank you’ and ‘i love you’ so tight.
you never know when is the day,
that you are being missed by someone; or
you missing that someone physically…

a few weeks back, i received calls regarding arrangements to have interviews.
and mind you, those resumes are sent like way long ago.
probably in late july or early august.

thank God that the interviews went on smoothly=D
and i had 4 interviews back to back.
and i’m shortlisted for a 2nd interview out of the 4.
the rest turns out good.

alright, i’m accepting the job offered.
pay is not fantastic, but i’m looking forward to it.
distance could be a chore but i’m fine with it.
what matters is i’m at least exploring something that i longed to do=D

3 signs that i accepted the job:
1. the director and managements just offer me the job like naturally.
2. aunty wendy ended saying. “it’s something that you like right?”
3. my supervisor called me way before i’m suppose to give her a call.

take heart, sometimes opportunity is given to you just once.
pursue what’s that your heart is longing for and you never know until you try.
and right now, i’m taking the step of faith.
that’s to try.
i’ll never know if it’s my calling until i try.

i went for a talk, and that’s titled:
Questions Are Your Answers.

i totally agree with the speaker regarding his speech.
some things that he said just causes me to think…

1. Questions determines our life.
how is it so that questions determines our life?
this is so because when we ask questions, it directs our focus.
and thus the questions becomes how we think and how we feel.
us being humans that is a complicated animal;
complicated because of the special element that is in us.
the EMOTIONAL factor!
if you realise, birds seems to be flying high so freely.
fishes seems to swimming so happily.
and rabbits seems to be hopping here and there with excitements.
we too, humans!
just that we display our emotions outwardly or inwardly.
be it hiding from anyone your emotions and all,
the matter of fact is that we’re emotional creatures.
and that somehow spurred us to greater things that we want in life.
for example, after doing badly for your PSLE.
you felt sad because of the result and is not able to enter your dream secondary school.
so you asked yourself this question:’what can i do to enjoy my studies in my not ideal secondary school?’
so you thought through and tell yourself you got to work hard in your years in secondary school,
and participated in the camps and activities in school.
the outcome turned out to be GOOD!
and that determines your once in a lifetime secondary school period.
isn’t it worthwhile?=DD

2. Quality questions create a quality life.
the elaboration that the speaker gave was:
successful person usually ask better questions.
questions that causes them to be successful.
the example that the speaker gave was Donald Trump.
he’s a successful man, earning big bucks and all.
however sometime during his business; he hit a financial crisis.
thus he got no choice but to declared bankrupt.
and after 2 years, he’s back to where he was that he begin with.
probably even better; in terms of financial status.
i strongly believe that what you think actually made you to be who you are.
for example, when you think positively, you’ll bound to live a positive lifestyle.

3. All things started with a question.
just like how kids love to do.
it’s also how we always ask,
is it that we’ve got egg first or we’ve got chicken first?
who created me and where do we head to after death on earth etc etc.
just like Edward Madison who asked the question of,
“how do i make sure i can see in the dark?”
and his noble invention – light bulb came about=D

someone said, “it’s not what happen to you but it’s what we do about it!”
no point asking a question and not do anything about it, right?

so peeps, start asking yourself the question which pushes you to be a better person=D
please don’t soak in your own agony and think why does that bad thing happened to you,
but turn the question around and ask what can you do to make it better?

end of rumblings…